Ok guys..back to posting..freaking lazy to post about anything..had training today..waa..fucking tough!or shud i say not rlly..lols..tough cuz i injured my hand ytd nite while using com..cool .. i dunno wat happen..was doing bio report..then suddenly left hand de shoulder aka neck there can't move..damn freaking pain..at first i was thinking..STROKE ah??lols..then aft tat is muscle pain..can't move..have to do 3 report with my left hand..wtf..took damn long lor..3hrs..was like 12.45 le..then finally finish..phew~then off come..pack uniform..pack bag..then go zzz le..didn't slp well cuz shoulder rlly pain..then wake up late again..so nv meet jol..walk to sch..slowly take own swt time..the moment i step into the side gate.."RINGGGG"so nv late..then had lesson..slept in class..damn freaking tired..then had np..before tat had pizza..jason owe ccu team de..so eat le..change half u..then had speech day parade rehearsal..then march lor..march march march..he GOH de..then at the side..so can see him..i at the back ma..he also back row..lols..tian!~he's cute man//lols..but nth much other than thinking he's cute...tian..but his beret slanted leh..very qi guai..lols..nvm..then wwnt makan mac..then walk to bus stop with bus nerd n dunhui.wait there for dunno how long..cuz this one come..i dun wan take..tat one come dun let him take..this one come he dun wan take..so at least got 30mins..then went home..rch hme at 9.20..lols..thn chatting now..i knew i dun anymore..but why does reality still hurts??ue are nth left to me..this much i can comfirm..tats all i have to say..we are rlly over..Labels: i dun anymore..i;m sure bout this..
guys..back to posting..was chionging hw and project like hell..
mostly the singapore flyer de project lor..
haiis..vry fan these few days..dunno why..
juz can't bring myself to laugh n smile..
suddenly got the feeling tat i really change alot ever since SHE left me..
i've changed alot ever since july07..i dunno why..
was no longer the same gal..
some of them have been telling me tat..i dunno why..
simply dun have the anergy..dun have the courage..dun have the motivation n mood to go do things..
all the things i used to love and enjoy has become nth to me..
becoming rlly "dao" and unfriendly..hate the way i am now..
simply hate evrything bout me...bout myself..hate my life..hate my fate..
hate my environment... simply hate everything..
rlly tired...
can never control my tears again..
can nv love ue again..
Labels: wo bu neng zai ai ni le..bu neng gou le
me ..emo-ing~
jason..he look really retard when he cycle with the bear and alot of bags
me n chiahao
me n feli
me n hongleung
me n saiful
me n jane
me n jane
me n xuan
me n jason aka busnerd
me n jinlong
me n zhihui
ok..guys here to post again..
had our competition today..
me myself think tat we had did a rly good job..
we finish everything in 10mins20secs!!!whee!!!
didn't expect it though..
but GIRLS~!we did it~!!lalas..
jiayou jiayou..!!ok..then aft tat went makan at s11..then went east coast..fucked up..super emo there..dunno why..the moment i step inside ..i super high bu qi lai memories flow back..tears flow down..lols..then jason look damn retard in the bag..bear..and bike..PINKISH-PURPLE de bike..then aft tat went hme le..nth much..To---I'm having enough of yr lies
this type of thing ue also can lie ah..ue gd..i call ue god.!professional LIAR..
(i use this cuz it rlly rlly rlly describe ue well)ue juz simply nv change..sick n tired..not taking any action..as i had said before..whatever ue done to me..ue will get back double of it..regardless if its good or bad..better pray hard..i'm starting to show ue tat ..all the best..dun come crying again..its not gonna worknever again..ue are not even _ _ _ for _ _ _..dun ue dare hurt _ _ _..yr nonsense is far worse than yr action..get it..ue know i'm refering to ue..dun come act dumb..act innocent..act pure..act cute..ue are juz simply nth in my eyes..though it doesn't mean anything..but i hope ..SERIOUSLY HOPE ue get wat i mean..ue are juz asking for it..for all these .ue know tat there are causes and consequences..yr causes is over..now its the consequences..prepared for it..dun be shock..dun act anymore..i'm not gonna be taking in by ue like the others..ue are juz simply a bitch and nth else..continue"backstabbing" me..and i'll make ue suffer a fate worse than hell..try me..
我想知道自己是否还爱你. 我想知道是否已经放下了. 我想知道我在想什么. 但我又怕知道答案. 怕追问自己. 怕我会再一次无法控制自己的眼泪 .那爱和痛还在吗? 我还在渴望你的爱吗?Labels: 你把爱情带走。。留我一个分手的魔咒。。将我伤得彻底不敢再妄想。。谁的温柔。。[缘份已尽了吗??]
our table
room~no.
curtain plus aircon
"chalet "we stay in
the restaurant..kong kong village..
our room
our bed
dia doing reflection
room
table
pocky..eating in the bunk
room key
me n dia de hand..with the bracelet and our wallet
my watch(spoil le..drop on the road)T.T
our dinner~!!
me n dia in the bunk
feli at the splastic home there..hahas..
me n dia de angel..
the area ard the village
saw the rooster??
alot alot of roosters,,
Potato..the girl..and me..hahas..
me..another gal and feli..
(tats the girl who hit us with balloons!lols...)
me and the very hyper girl there..
dia..girl and me..
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saw the monkey..
got three..but here oni take one..
me n dia in bus.
i take de..the cause way there
The splastic home..
hey guys..
back to posting again..
hmm..juz came back from camp..
went to malaysia there..for growth camp..
was really fun..quite slack though..
first day..
meet in sch ..assembly..
then those going malaysia de assemble at the side..
so went there..
then aft tat..we board the bus le..
not vry long journey..thn rch the custom there..
went scanned the passport,..dia and ah zhu kana stuck in side the second door..
passport prob..
i went in successfully.."clapclap"
kk..then went up the bus again..
then continue journey to malaysia there de custom..
then take evrything down..sianns..
give them passport..
they chop chop chop..
then went up another bus..malaysia de..
then first stop ..
proceed to the splastic children association..the first thing is to have briefing..by the incharge there..then aft tat went around..the first room we went into..we hear someone crying..until vry scary..xin vry suan very tong de..they cry until vry ke lian..cuz they very xin ku i think..sobs..haiis...learn to treasure my life and not waste my time..why they have disabilities yet it can't stop them from fulfilling their own dreams..some are athletics..some bowling de..some games de..all vry pro..even those who's on wheelchair also vry strong..they nv give up..rlly admire them..then aft tat..play games with them..the other group was suppose to teach them fold heart..ended up straw all over..they throw the straw..fold..step..used to connect and build things..these little action can rlly make them so happy..they were like sooo sooo soo happy..then aft tat went to do balloon for them//i damn ke lian..kana hit by the balloon..got one gal damn cute..she take the balloon then start hitting me feli and zhenkhan..and she was like laughing soo happily..vry kai xin..so let her hit lor..also not pain de..nvm..then aft tat had a grp photo..then about to go back le..then got one of them cry..not the one i play with de..cuz she can't bear to part with them..sad..then went to the souveneir shop..tings made by them..some of it la..then me n dia each bought a angel keychain//clip and one bracelet..kk..then aft tat..went makan lunch..then shop shop a while..bought shirt and watch..but spoil the watch today .lols~went to our chalet..waa seh damn shiok lor..its really like a chalet like tat..pro..went there..put our bag in the bunk..mine was 306..level 3..i share room with dia and jol..lols..:)then had a tour around the area..name kongkong village..then aft tat..dinner..then night activities..muz blindfold and then listen to yr partner direction and walk lor..i pair with mun ru//tat joker aka lamer..can't tahan him..his jokes damn cold...~~lols..then went back bunk..bath ..dia first..me then jol..then do reflection..then went down had supper..then zzz le..dia tired..so zzz first..then me and jol there on torch and eating cuttlefish and listening music..we use the cuttlefish to tie knots~~!!lols..and do structure of basha..lols..nth to do..then i ask jol "we like tat will wake dia up ma?"then she say "should be "then i say "aiya think wun de..she slp until like log and pig like tat"then suddenly dia turn ard..lols..she haven't slp..:P..she heard everything~!!!then zzz...halfway through the night..suddenly got one leg keep rubbing against me..then very fan..i push away..it come again..then i look down..wang ba dan..is dia de leg..she very cold..then rub against my leg to get warm..WT~!!nvm..Day 2me jol and dia set 3 alarm..dia 6.45..jol 6.50 ..me 6.55..but none of it woke me up..me n jol slp like pig..dia keep pushing us..ask us wake up..we dun care..she go wash up le we still zzz...lols..then kana tickle by her..then bo bian ..wake up..haiis..sad..tired lor..then went to wash up..then jol still zzzing..PIG~!nvm..hahas..then tie hair..change and go down le..had briefing then a bit of morning exercise..then breakfast~!!!then aft tat went up take bag..put bottle poncho and others inside..preparing to go TREKKING~!tian~bus journey =1hr plus 2hrslp a bit..then aft tat..atart the trekking..climb gunung panti..super high..waa seh..the starting was ok..but then the middle part was like fuck lor..its not normal mountain like bukit timah..is rlly tat type of mountain with rocks.trees..and a lot of weird thing..no road at all..is a secondary forest..tian..climb like siao..almost fell down alot of time..muz crawl through logs..climb over logs..jump here jump there..climb here climb there...siao le lor..then i bang my head 4 times..arrgh..pain~got one supporter mun ru..lols..to support me and hold me when i falling or climbing ..nice guy..but juz a "bit" too cold..hahas..then got one 90degrees de rock way..wtf~!!totally 90degree..muz climb like rock climbing..and its damn damn damn high..not careful fall down i bet with ue my life..ue comfirm die..waa seh..then climb for damn damn damn long..then manage to complete oni 1/5 of it..SIANZthen we took 2hrs plus going to 3 hrs to rch the first submit..when the other trekker was 1hrs30mins..then after tat rch there le..sit and eat lunch nia..the view damn freaking nice..super nice..can see the whole view ..hmm..then time to go down..was like SO damn tough..rlly tough..beginning was ok..but alot of steps..and thx lot of mun ru..he very bz supporting and holding me..he fell down once cuz he need go down hold me down..sry ah ..then walk walk walk..suddenly got one of the guide point at my ankle there and shout "leech"i wss like wth..screaming and crying le..then mr wong came to check..say its oni cut..heng~then help clean and put plaster..waa...the top of my socks was soak with blood awhile ltr..tian..then rch the 90 degree thing.gotta go down this time..wa seh..will die..is directly down and ue have to climb down..=.="almost fell..but nv..was rlly scary..cuz vry high..then rch down le..walk like hell..total i think we took 5 hrs plus up and down the mountain..waa...then nvm..haiis..went back bus..slp like hell..then somemore during the trip it rain 3-4 times..we were soak..then straight bath le..(cuz of this trekking..invited one rumour about me n ... ..for tat night and today ..grr..nvm..and tat "person" still dare say he nv say...fine..so be it..)went down..had dinner..then reflection time..then zzz le..went back bunk..pack things..then slp...can't wake up the next morning..same thing .me n jol the pig..dia the waker..keep waking us up..then wash up..change..then go down le..had a bit of morning exercise and fun..then breakfast..this time i serve the drinks~^^..hahasthen had some games..then went back bunk take barang barang..dia they all saw monkey on the cable outside..all of them straight away shout..'CARMEN...MONKEY"..lols..at the same time somemore..wth..grr...damn cute lor..then assemble in the room again./..went out take pic..then take bag and go home le..was rlly fun..trip was 2hrs plus think..then went sch..had some talk by mr shaw..then a cheer by us..then went hub with jol..feli and paddy..makan sushi..then go back home le..special thx to "-Mun ru/aka my supporter..hai ni fall down..sry..-terence-leemei-claudia-eshly-kenneth-tingzhi-lena-teachers-the guidesxiexie ni men..or else i wun be back down safely le..hahs..too mushy le..hahas..lalas..bb..
my "prize
name
my paper plate
test
first day reflection
me n jol
who's tat zzz??
my cert
our standardize notebk
letter from ain m'am..lols..
Hey guys..back from CL camp..
^^..lols..kind of fun..butbut....haiis...too short le..first day..haiis..dreaded going for the camp..kana scolded...
then after tat had our bunk cleaning..boys level 2..gals 2na classroom --3rd level..clean like siao..lols..then after tat..got a vry small small "pt" outside our bunk..lols..then aft tat..change to full U..we too slow le..hen aft tat..change back PT kit..then aft tat we came down the earliest..so sir allow us go change into full U then assemble at LP..wait for the boys..lols..they ltr than us..then aft tat..drills.. then lunch..aft tat had Lecture~~!!tian ah..aft tat..break..then went back bunk..rest a while..heard two whistle..then run down for "lesson"..when we run down..saw the guys..they kana pump..cuz nv ask us come down..like not a team like tat..then had campcraft lesson..lols..had test..give our campcraft badge back lemuz earn it back..lols..then had lecture again i think..ya..campfire dethen aft tat..bath..waa seh..we damn funny..we go in..shout and scream..
then aft tat..we say 1 2 3.all on tap and scream together..cuz the water is damn freaking COLD~!!lols.
then dry our hair using hand dryerlalas..then dinner time..nice dinner..not our ration..!!
then had orienteering lecture at ava room..lecture again..but quite fun..lolsthen had sing-along..we wanna get very high de..but then the surrounding like not vry high like tat..then nv get too high.mr ang came to teach us song..lols..so funny ..then had supper and debrief..then interview.. me and cheryl the first one..i kana interview by jason and meng lie..waa seh..so many question..i dunno how to ans..but managed to finish..lols..lucky..lols..then aft tat..went study for test for vry long..need write reflection too..then 12++ slp...2.30 wake up..got sentuary duty..tired like hell..then walk walk walk..dunhui go step on snail..arrgh..then i whole duty keep shining my torchlight on the ground n walk..to make sure the coast clear..grr...then went back zzzin the middle of the note..waa seh..damn cold..i come back from duty..then saw poncho wrapping ard cheryl..can;'t even see her..LOLs.
day 2
wake up by alarm clock regina..fall in..had lectureon how to take pt..then aft tat breakfastthen changed to full U and had drills..arm drills i mean..then aft tat forget le..think aft aft tat is orienteering at cb park..then come back..lecture again..T.T..then had camp fire thingy..practical..lols..stack up firewood de..then aft tat..wash up..this time water is warm de..lalalas..and DINNER~!!then watch" movie " at "NPCC cinema" located in cbss level 4 ava room..lols..ticket $12??hahs..actually is games and video on leadership..quite fun..conducted by mr wong..i think..
can't rmb..lols..STM.then got free time..the free time includes study..supper and self study..for theory test..then debrief..and zzzz..but we study until one..throughout the nite..me feli and cheryl zzz le..then jol and regina on torch study and chat..then suddenly saw someone at the window..eeeee...ended up is jason and dunhui..they scream..cuz tio shock,,i kana woken up..but the other two zzz until dunno wat..then was like damn funny..then after tat..went back zzz..2++am..heard alot of short whistle..but all of us cont slping..didn't wanna care..or tot "walao..wats tat noise..arrgh"then went back slp..but then whistle nv stop..then i open eyes..look out window..saw serena m'am..then wondering why she there..keep blowing whistle..then suddenly got this feeling tat the whistle signal..like vry familiar leh..then shit...is fire drills..fuck..then all wake up and run down..then kana ask go back bunk and wait for another whistle..cuz we took rlly long..ard 5 to 10 mins..then we almost zzz le..then another whistle come..waa siann..then run all the way down..fall in..report strength..realise "burn out" missing 2 ppl..then aft tat..we all run ard school look for them...run like siao..but still cannot find..in the middle of the nite smmore,.tired..then end up cannot find..fall in back..then they come running ..then "lecture a while"then went back zzz..can;t slp..totally can't slp..in the middle of the nite..wake up run ard sch..then go back slp..still can slp meh??then a while ltr then manage to zzz..day 3then zzzz all the way..until my back damn pain..then wake up..see clock..6.15am??was like straining my eyes and see..not sure if see correctly anot..then stand up..walk under the clock..and stared at it rlly 6.15am le..was like wth!!6 gotta fall in and PT le..then i wake them up..tell them is 6.15 le..i rmb clearly feli ask me "ni ok ma?"then they tot i dreaming..i think..lols..then rush rush..until 6.35 like tat..then 6.40 run down..until level 2/saw guys bunk got ppl..then ended up knowing they also juz wake up ..then wanna run down le..then dunhui walk up..ask us go back bunk..but we say we late ..he say glad ue know..then all blurblur..walk back bunk..sit on table..study for test..was like thinkingjuz now they nv come wake us up and call us isit bcuz they wan test us..like whether we got responsibility or not..or whether we got punctuality anot..etc..then maybe the guys wake up go down fall in..then nv see us..then sir they all ask them dun call us..see how long we take..etc..our imagination going wild and wilder and wilder..then eyes closing le..then jol and me go dance the "like tat like tat ..liketatliketatliketatde dance..hahas..then still dun rlly work..a while nia..then i started dancing my self..LOLS..then "beeppppp~~~beeppp~~~~"all run down..then flag raising..then breakfast..no pt..cuz replace by fire drills.cool~~then breakfast..then test..then i went for the command thing..got full marks..cuz i think got the gut to go ba..then take a lot alot of pic..lols..damn fun..jump..run..screm..hahasthen watch a video..sad..a bit tearingthen got result..then my test got 93/100..was expecting to get 50++60 de..lols..and and and ..got the most knowledgeable camper award..lols..with feli as the best female camper~!!wan sui~~hahas..then nth le..the endour cheer-----------"helo~i wan to camp it here"" ~a little longer here""~a little longer here with ue""~its such a perfect camp ""~its doesn't seems quite long""~this is our last nite here with ue""~and when comes tml""~i will rmb""~our training days and tough PT""~and as the days pass by""~i'll think of ue and cry""~its juz nitenite and not byebyefirst one..Ringgg...hellohello minus "L"wats tat?"L" change the worldwho change the world?HELO change the worldi can't hear ueHELO HELO change the worldITs us THE HELO~"shout scream..."~~~
Labels: i'll try my best to get rid of the feeling..juz for her..你喜欢他。。就不要瞒着我。。会让我更辛苦。。dun hide it from me gal..
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